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2013年7月12日凌晨时分，（即13日） Pango 走了 13日早上5点多  我在出门前 爸爸发现Pango走了 看着Pango 死的样子 我第一时间是我无法相信 接着就哭了 我这个哭包，久久一次把 水喉头给扭开了 就扭坏了 哭个不停 哭个 稀里哗啦 我蹲下来，望着他。 我轻轻地 呼唤着他的名字 他却没反应 我不相信  我望着他的肚子 希望还有所起伏 盼望他还在呼吸 可他的肚子一点动静也没有 头部从木板上滑落在地上 舌头吐出  口水流出 我知道 他这次真的走了 不知为何 我当时一直不敢摸他最后一次 我不懂当时的我究竟是在怕什么 庞哥生前是很喜欢我轻抚他的啊！ 我究竟是在犹豫着什么？！ 现在 我仍感到后悔遗憾不已. :( 无奈我今日有上学，转身拥抱妈妈苦苦哭着的时候还得看着时间哭 深怕耽误了别的学生乘搭小车的时间 很无奈又没办法，因为我爸是校车司机 我昨晚还刚好梦到我正在和某某（忘了谁）一起从我们的饭菜里分着一半出来给Pango吃 我还在一旁嘟嚷着不舍得我的菜给他吃 现在 我才发现我更不舍得他 此外 妈妈昨天还刚为他皈依为真佛宗弟子 说这星期六会去Kerling莲花阁把他的皈依证书带回来 兽医昨天还刚刚为他治疗 做最后一次的拼搏 虽然当时兽医说他只有50%的存活率， 但我仍然抱着一线希望 看到他在吊点滴后 终于会喝点水了 我心里放松了不少 接下来就是希望他可以胃口大开 再来就是重新站起来 健健康康地多活些天也好... 因为 对庞哥(Pango) 我还有好多事情没有为他做 我还没为他洗过澡 没有认认真真地， 好好地待着他 一切一切庞哥的点点滴滴 都在我脑海，心里不断地重播着 过往，他和我们一家相处的一切一切....... 我还在今天里，连连大哭了3遍 1.在校车里 2.在学校里（忍到第一次下课时，情绪来了，泪崩了.最后为了留给自己足够的纸巾，才逼着自己不哭，正常地过了下半天的校园日子） 3.在小车里 我为他而哭 弟弟也为他而哭【吓到我】 妈妈也是 坚强的则爸爸说，他哭在心底里 最后，妈妈和弟弟负责把他埋葬起来， 说是因为想要弥补自己对他的不足的地方 结果在锄地过程中 妈妈闪到腰了 ...

He said he wanna watch movies and that made me expected Wednesday badly, which is today [Wednesday got discount over the price of movie ticket] And now?! My very "good" brother.... He show me faces Asked him what movie he wanna watch And he simply replied me "whatever" (sui bian) What means "sui bian"?! There's no movie named like that He is SUCKS! I endured him I assumed that he also wanna watch movies, just dunno what to watch, and not used to go watch movies without the accompanies of families, like my dad, mom, unca , aunt and soso.../// I went to check the movie schedules, and I even do some researches of what movies I wanna watch, since the "genius" him said "whatever". = _ = And then? He also started to check out. Epic Star Trek Into Darkness Fast n Furious 6 Then he said he wanna watch FnF6 I rejected, since my 14 year old cousin bro doesn't look like an 18yr old. [He still look ...

First of all, now is 年中假期 I had made my parents unhappy this year We argued I often have conflict with my dad and yet, he is the one who doted me so much And now? Our relationship's kinda "renggang" --malay language, which means sprawl... I made him upset   Just like today, I felt annoyed when he asked me to get my homework and houseworks done. So I showed him faces. He got furious, and then he did things like: closed the door vigorously, pulled the hangers vigorously too,  well, whatever actions he did after that are fiercely, forcefully....大大力地 I think he is just to vent his anger.. and I knew that he is thinking of hitting me, but he didn't since he loved me and respected my as a teenager already :(  I don't do what I supposed to do( etc,: homework,revisions, housework) And I often forgot about the disbursement of my family, nor my dad's freakin' high blood pressure I even contradicted against my sc...

She's my best friend in year2011. She's RACHEL SEK. She is the first whom made me have the feelings to get back to school studying, even though it was holiday. She made me laugh every moments in school. She is a cute person. She is good. She is nice. She LOVED JUSTIN BIEBER. I loved her perfume. I never and I don't wish to doubt about her. I don't care all about her scandals. I just believed in her. I believe in what I see in her.... I believed every single word she says. I enjoyed listening to every stories she told me. I loved the moments being with her. It was fun!!! I regretted that I haven't being beside her when she needs comfort and warmth. I'm ... SORRY. I'm glad that a person who is such a beauty like you would ever be friends with me, share your stories with me, encouraged me. I also felt repentant as I NEVER HAD A PHOTO WITH YOU.  :( It's my fate and my luck to be acquainted with you. #I was shocked when I read your ...

明明就是喜欢你 却得对你装作不理不睬 这就是 在错的时间，喜欢上错的人的结果吗? 真不明白，究竟我们的前世发生了什么事? 让我们在今世无法... 爱无惧..... 之间的感觉，慢慢地淡掉了 看着你，我不会再感到心跳加速。反而，没有感觉，好像什么都不曾发生似的。 或许我已经成功了一半。 开始放弃这段不应该有的  喜欢.

我，黄梨人来End一 End Yr2012@ 不清不楚，有点堕落的一年，来开始2013: @ 披荆斩棘的一年！！！

忘了说昨天我看的《绝对达令》了. 越来越讨厌美佳这个角色了！！！！她哪里可以为奈特重新初始化呢？！ 可恶！！！ 最讨厌他和美佳深情热吻的样子。。。。我****!!!!!! 原本我还沉浸在他们终于发现了美佳真面目的“幸福”中，现在感觉上像是掉到地狱里去了。心还会隐隐作痛，难道是我入戏太深了？！ 期待今天的第九集。。 我开始对那个幼齿呐喊，大声乱吼了。是受不了了吧。 一个7岁的，一个9岁的，怎么差这么远啊？希望7岁的他能够永远都这么乖巧有纪律，让大家永远都疼爱他。